Somewhere there's speaking
It's already coming in
Oh and it's rising at the back of your mind
You never could get it
Unless you were fed it
Now you're here and you don't know why
But under skinned knees and the skid marks
Past the places where you used to learn
You howl and listen
Listen and wait for the
Echoes of angels who won't return
He's everything you want
He's everything you need
He's everything inside of you
That you wish you could be
He says all the right things
At exactly the right time
But he means nothing to you
And you don't know why
You're waiting for someone
To put you together
You're waiting for someone to push you away
There's always another wound to discover
There's always something more you wish he'd say
But you'll just sit tight
And watch it unwind
It's only what you're asking for
And you'll be just fine
With all of your time
It's only what you're waiting for
Out of the island
Into the highway
Past the places where you might have turned
You never did notice
But you still hide away
The anger of angels who won't return
I am everything you want
I am everything you need
I am everything inside of you
That you wish you could be
I say all the right things
At exactly the right time
But I mean nothing to you and I don't know why
And I don't know why
I don't know
Why
I heard this song in the car while resting against the front seat.. I was in my own little thinking world until this came on. I almost did cry, not out of depression but out of realization. It hurt to hear those words that I was mouthing, barely above a whisper. Those lyrics meant more then I could have ever imaged at the time. I always relate to songs, you all know I do. If I can relate, I love it. I'm not in a sad mood at all.. but this song helped me understand what I was feeling about Ian. Everything was perfect but It wasn't enough and I didn't know why. Mhmm. Thought I'd put that for the thought process. I went to Walmart today and my eye prescription changed -.25. Ohhhhh yeah. Evilness. But I've got new contacts and I can rightly see now. Feels great. Getting colored ones in a week. In a way I can't seem to think that tomorrow will be Friday. Interesting. Whew. It's only 8:00 and I really want to do something. Damn damn damn. But A) its too late. B) my mom would never let me out considering last friday's events and C) where would I go? No absolute clue. I'm thinking that I'm going to go on a veggie diet. I'm at 147 right now.. and before Christmas I've got a goal of 125. : nods : It will happen! It has to. I think I'll rummage the kitchen now. Sorry if most of this entry was pointless, apologize to those who read my writings religiously. Courtney
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