Wow. Alot has happened since yesterday.. which is weird.. because I never expected most of what I needed to know to come to me so soon. But I guess thats what happen if you dwell upon something too long. Cande and I sent poems to Kei through Naka. He got them and she sent a poem of his back to us. Then she was online... we talk for a good half hour. I got alot of my questions answered.. Where he is... Whats going on.. Some of the new rules. THAT HE STILL LOVES CANDE! I am so excited at the moment.. its quite happy actually. I keep on thinking about everything... and finally the answers come my way.. and now I know what to do when I need to reach him.. ^^;; It takes alot of worry away.. and I believe that this is what Cande needed to pick her up off the ground. ^-^ This changes everything.. Devotion is stronger then ever. I can rest easy for awhile. Thank who ever is looking out for me.
Braces hurt quite alot.. but I'll be alright. Only a few more days I guess. Tricia wants me to come over tonight and spend the night.. Im still apprehensive.. Im not the greatest friend.. I swear I know it. I'm too distracted by Cande.. by Keisuke to think about anything but them. It's frustrating and I dont want to hurt her like I have alot of the people I know. I have to talk to Cande this afternoon.. its an emergency. Mock Trial this afternoon.. I hope she doesn't call while I'm gone. Life is taking a better turn. Five months he's been gone.. and a bagillion more to go. But its alright.. I can make it through because I know what he's thinking. I know whats going ... on. Not all of it entirely.. but close enough. I just need to focus upon school, getting out of here as quick as possible is what is important. I need social interaction along the way though.. or I'll go slowly insane. I want to watch X 1999 today.. and maybe fulltime killer again for the millionth time. I'm content, but my mouth is screaming in agony over the metal they put in there. Owwwie
Courtney