Shinya x Toshiya log
8:49 P.M. & Monday, Aug. 04, 2003

Xv Jesse R vx: Fi sh ne t dreams and sugar coated happiness. He walked- or Skipped rather down the sidewalk. It was quite an upbeat day for Toshiya. The rain had just cleared up and the sun seemed only to eager to shine its light again. And the

Xv Jesse R vx: same seemed to go about his mood. Last depressed and undecided..he was able to just shove it back and throw it away. He was off to Apologize. Yes. To Shinya for being such an ungrateful spoiled boy. He didnt need to have Die...and

Xv Jesse R vx: he shouldn't have been moping about it. Well, thats how he saw it anyway. If Die needed him and wanted him bad enough, then it would happen. As simple as that. Hair was spiked wildly and seemed to go only too well with his spikes.

Xv Jesse R vx: Collar, Wrist. Hmm Yes. Fishnet shirt shredded and torn in the best fashionable way attainable. Only he could pull this girlish gothic piece together and he knew it. Grinning that childish grin that made you laugh ten times over,

Xv Jesse R vx: crooked and loveable. Yes, he was content today. Boots hit the ground with a thud with each skip and not before long he stopped infront of a building. He whispered in a sing song voice. "Ohhh Shinnnnyaaaa.." Turning his head this

Xv Jesse R vx: way and that as if moving to a beat, he made his way up the stair well. Eyes adverted to the rose that he held in his hand. Yes. An Apologetic Rose. He knew how worried and Shinya could get and he was sorry to even had said a thing

Xv Jesse R vx: that would Upset his dear friend. Finger tip pressed the door bell as he waited. An dro gyn ous P er fe ct ion .

Introvert Beauty: R i n g l e t s dyed in the color of strawberry kisses and cherry lips, danced whimsically upon a gentle breeze. Eyes normally shaded in a deep hue of chocolate brown, were now colored in honey, as a result of cotntact lenses given

Introvert Beauty: to provide him a new 'look'. Red lips parted as a sigh escaped them gently, floating out into the air as he stared restlessly through the open window. Stuck in a reverie, the faint ringining of the doorbell wasn't heard upon it's fi

Introvert Beauty: rst ring, but rather it's second or was it third? Clad in long sleeved vinyl top, neckline cut in a jagged pattern, and a long black skirt cut in a similar manner, it bared what thigh was left uncovered by boots that stopped a litt

Introvert Beauty: le over his knees. Silver hooped belt hung loosely from his slender hips. Neck hidden behind a black lace choker, concealed smooth, flawless skin, and the Adam's apple the told of his true gender. Walking gracefully towards the door

Introvert Beauty: , boots clicking ever so softly against the cool tile floors. " Who is it..? " Inquired the young, feminine beauty, honey eyes peering through the small peephole surprised evident as he had found the person outside to be none other

Introvert Beauty: than the beautiful blue haired angel, Toshiya. Cream colored fingers silently unlocked the door and the knob gave way with a click as he pulled the door back slightly, welcoming the older man in. " Konnichiwa, what brings you here..

Introvert Beauty: ? " A smile. Shinya smiled. Those red lips curled on both ends. A visitor. He hadn't had one of those in a while. Usually who ever came knocking at his door was either a crazed fan or a salesman selling some weird object that was of

Introvert Beauty: no use to him. Stepping back slightly, Shinya guestured for the other man to come in. A visitor. He smiled. No.., a f r i e n d.

Xv Jesse R vx: Cr im so n regret and seductive figures. He stood at the door for only seconds, eagerly pushing that button again that would bring his friend to him. Was he not home? Biting his lip in a bit of a worry, perhaps he should have

Xv Jesse R vx: called first..but then it wouldn't be a surprise! Frustrated he rung it once more before. *Shinya!* His mind said lightly before he smiled wide. Eyes were drunk with happiness before looking to the rose at his hand. Long stemmed.

Xv Jesse R vx: He could fix that. Breaking most of the stem, dropping it carelessly to the floor, slender digits placed it in those cherry glowing tresses. Right above the ear. No thorns would prick that skin or cause discomfort. "I'm Sorry." He

Xv Jesse R vx: whispered before taking the gesticulation that Shinya's hand had made. Boots that went high up to his thighs thudding softly against the tile as he turned on a heel. "I did not mean to cause you so much worry.." He put an

Xv Jesse R vx: apprehensive hand upward as in not to let Shinya interrupt him..to tell him that it was fine.. "If Die needs me, then Die will come. I do not need to be moping around and worrying those who are closest to me. Now, say you forgive

Xv Jesse R vx: me?" That smile once more before he let that hand that was paused in mid air fall to his side. A sigh passed through his black silk painted lips. Die. Still a little rise of depression, but this too would pass, and today was a new

Xv Jesse R vx: day. Yes. New day. That smile that played games on his lips was an authentic one. True Toshiya Happiness. No fake facade that he had used before. Cry and make no sound, worry but do it in se cr et.

Introvert Beauty: A t h o u g h t f u l guesture upon two friends. A rare laugh escaped those lips. " Okay... I forgive you. " Smile widening, a pale hand shot up to close the door. Worry. Sadness. Depression. Shinya noted that all seemed far from

Introvert Beauty: Toshiya's mind, at least for the present moment. With a sigh, slender fingers gracefully took the rose that was set behind his ear. A rose. His favorite flower. Shinya laughed. But Toshiya had given him to wrong color. " Domo, ne.

Introvert Beauty: ... But shouldn't this be yellow... or white..? " It was the thought that counted really. But red stood for romance and they shared none between the two. Yellow on the other hand stood for friendship and white.. forgivness most prob

Introvert Beauty: ably. Fearing that the flower given out of friendship would wilt away and die, Shinya rushed into the kitchen. The sound of cupboards and silverware was hard to ignore as Shinya searched for a vase.... Aha! He smiled in truimp findi

Introvert Beauty: ng a single porcelain vase to house the rose. Quickly flling it with water and setting it on the counter the rose soon found itself sitting inside the porcelain piece, it's bright red hue in contrast with the pale white piece. Hummi

Introvert Beauty: ng a soft daipason as he sauntered back towards hallway Shinya could not help but stare at the beauty Toshiya. " You're much prettier than me you know.. " That was sure of topic. A faint chuckled escaped those lips. But it was true!

Introvert Beauty: At least in his eyes it was... Toshiya had gorgeous legs. He hid his. Toshiya had wonderful, wide eyes. He disliked his. Toshiya was loved by everyone. He blended into the background. Compare. Contrast. The b e a u t y and the a n g

Introvert Beauty: e l.

Xv Jesse R vx: Sa dn es s and despair. His mood was bright and cheery as Shinya rush it get a vase. Mmm..Perhaps he had gotten the wrong color..but he quickly retaliated with that. "Well I make up my own defitions for colors." He smirked. "And red

Xv Jesse R vx: is the most beautiful color. Stands for Blood, Betrayl, Hurt, and now forgiveness. Because perhaps, in my ungrateful mode I have inflicted a few of those meanins upon you. And I am sorry." But he said this to himself he realized,

Xv Jesse R vx: Shinya was in the kitchen, but he probably had heard him anyway...And then that comment. It made Toshiya frown, arms suddenly came to cross about his chest, as a sigh came. Well it was obvious he had to do something about this. He

Xv Jesse R vx: let his slender hands take the vase from Shinya, setting it on the table. Shinya was asking for it. Fingers clasped around those strawberry locks tenderly. "Silk hair..." Mmm..."Strawberries and Cherries. " He bit his lip and looked

Xv Jesse R vx: at Shinya. "You find this not beautiful?" Fingertips moved to his Jawline.. "Beautiful feminine features..." He studied those eyes now. "Seriousness and sadness weaving together. Perfection of Beauty. " Stepping backward he looked

Xv Jesse R vx: upon the figure at a whole stance. "An angel who can look so lost and happy all in one." He shook his head. "I am no match to compare with your beauty, Shinya. Don't make me. " Eyebrows challenged the other before letting his hands

Xv Jesse R vx: fall to his sides. Candy kisses and satin wrapped pr om is es

Introvert Beauty: S o f t whispers and h i d d e n smiles. A blush crept upon those ghostly hued cheeks, blending pink with white as Toshiya's fingers entangled themselves in locks that smelled of lavender and rose. Beauty. Sadness. They blended qui

Introvert Beauty: te well together. Shinya stood, speechless, the feel of Toshiya's eyes inspecting his feminine form made him feel a little uneasy and yet his words put him at ease. " I won't. " Calm. Collective. Silent. Shinya had reverted back to

Introvert Beauty: old habits, answering things with the words the words necessary to apease the question. No word more. No word less. Just.. exactly. Yet in some way, Shinya searched to no avail for a sentence.. something to say that wouldn't bore th

Introvert Beauty: e blue haired angel to death.. Shinya let out a sigh, finding nothing quite interesting to say to the other. That was the thing about him, about Shinya himself. He had grown so accustomed to rarely speaking, that when the moment aro

Introvert Beauty: se, he could find nothing to talk about whatsoever. It wasn't his fault he wasn't a social butterfly, like a certain bassist. Honey colored eyes drifted towards that angelic face. Those eyes. That cute smile. Crooked, yet adorable t

Introvert Beauty: eeth. A chuckled escaped those painted lips. Introvertive Shinya, friends with the adorable Toshiya. " But you... " He dared to speak. Boots clicked. Fingers found themselved propping the other man's chin up. " Pretty Totchi.. " A s

Introvert Beauty: mile. A laugh. Those fingers were lifted away, now resting upon his own cheek. " I envy you... social butterfly. " The last words were but a mere whisper. Shinya didn't know if Toshiya could hear them. S t r a w b e r r y lips an

Introvert Beauty: d c r e a m colored skin.

Xv Jesse R vx: To us le d dreams and fragile pain. Vivid Violet eyes looked in suspicion. He envied Toshiya, did he? Emotion changed perhaps maybe in the wrong way. Something that could ruin this friendship forever. Perhaps the color of the rose

Xv Jesse R vx: wasn't wrong in its meaning...in which the meaning that one might take it, on the other hand. Moving closer to the other fingertips played with a strawberry strand before brushing along those beautiful full lips. Mmm. "You..." Words

Xv Jesse R vx: were drawn out in a different manner, an entirely new meaning upon itself. He stared into those honey colored eyes now. "Envy" He took his time. This wasn't something to rush. Warm fingertips rested on Shinya's cheek now. "Me?"

Xv Jesse R vx: Seductive. Enticing. Entrancing. Like a song with an inescapeable rhythm. Either you listened to it, or broke the record player to pieces until the song played no more. This is how it was now. The heat of the moment. Violet eyes

Xv Jesse R vx: traced downward to those lips. It was obvious what the point of this was. Seduction and blood stained ro se pe ta l s .

Introvert Beauty: F r i e n d s h i p and broken romance. The reddish hue on his cheeks darkened upon feeling those fingers, Toshiya's fingers, brush through his hair, lips, and came to rest on his cheek. Heart beating hard against his chest. The mea

Introvert Beauty: ning of a red rose. Romance. Blooming between them? Or a bud of desire, waiting patiently to grow? Seduction. Wanting. Getting. " Toshiya." His own slender fingers, rested atop the older man's own. Where would this lead? He closed

Introvert Beauty: his eyes. In some ways Shinya knew this wasn't supposed to be happening, and yet his touch, the feel of his skin on his skin. Made even Shinya, the calmest, most serious of the group blush in nervousness. The butterflies in his stom

Introvert Beauty: ach fluttered about restlessly. His mind told him not to, not to well fall prey to Toshiya's skilled seduction. Yet something else told him to go for it. One step. His boots clicked against the floor. Two steps. So close.. Three ste

Introvert Beauty: ps. Adorable Toshiya.. wasn't as adorable as it seemed. Four steeps. A breath, and then a kiss. Just a soft one. A short one. It wouldn't hurt just to steal one. A rose. A red rose. B l o o m i n g desire, broken h e a r t s.

Xv Jesse R vx: L a c e and black satin sheets. Violet hues were concentrated on the other. "Your blushing." He could feel the heat rise from the other's cheeks. Mm. And then as he took those steps. His mind seemed to count them aloud. One. He

Xv Jesse R vx: couldn't stand being this close...Two. But so far away. Three. Looking through the looking glass. Four. Shattered. Skilled Seduction indeed. He only learned from the best, but in turn? He had changed the outlook of the lessons. He,

Xv Jesse R vx: unlike Die, did not leave the other waiting for so long. Teetering on the edge and brink of desire. And this passion tasted like..Strawberries? Mm. None the less expected. The kiss was slight and very chaste. But Toshiya would not

Xv Jesse R vx: let Shinya escape with just this. Arms locked instinctively around Shinya's small delicate waist before he kissed that jawline. Slow, ready. Yearning for what he for so long could never have. Finally resting his lips against

Xv Jesse R vx: Shinya's. Rose petals. Silk rose petals. The kiss was deepened as passion aroused. He broke the kiss only for a breath before moving in once more, hands positioning those locks away from that perfected throat. Kisses were lain

Xv Jesse R vx: against it. Electric shocks of desire. He spoke against the other's throat. "You are beautiful.." Emotional rollercoasters and a ride of pa ss io n.

Introvert Beauty: S p e a k to me with hollow I love you's. A shiver. A gasp. Fingers tangling themselves in the other's hair. His blush. " I can't help it... " The words softly whispered into the others ear. Touch. The feel of Toshiya's arms wrappe

Introvert Beauty: d around his waist. Taste. The flavor of Toshiya's lips for the second time pressed upon his own. Smell. The scent of passion mixed with lavender and rose. All unexpected but more than invited. Mmm. Twirling those tresses round his

Introvert Beauty: slender fingers. Eyes closing at the feel of hot lips pressed against his throat. Then that comment. Toshiya's comment. You are beautiful... " Only for you..." A barely audible whisper, as if afraid to ruin the moment. An unimagina

Introvert Beauty: ble moment. Pulling back, Shinya rested his head in the crook of Toshiya's neck, arms wrapped gently round the bassist's own waist. " Is this right..?" Inquired the feminine beauty. A desire burning within. Yearning only for you. Li

Introvert Beauty: ps pressed gently against the other's cheek, fingers intwining with the other's own. Honey colored eyes peering into shaded violet. Desire. Burning desire. A meaning held in the petals or a red rose. A passion blooming between the h

Introvert Beauty: earts of two individuals. But with passion came pain. And what more, was this passion even real? Toshiya loved Die didn't he...? And yet here he was, holding Shinya in his arms. But perhaps it was his fault, Shinya's fault, for br

Introvert Beauty: inging this upon himself. He did after all give the first kiss, not to say he was complaining, Toshiya was beautiful. Smooth skin. Soft Lips. Who wouldn't want to be held in his arms? Yet it felt so wrong. A sigh. A frown. Shinya hu

Introvert Beauty: gged himself closer to Toshiya for comfort. The only two in exsistance, standing in eachother's arms. Do w i t h me as you wish, but don't dare break my h e a r t.

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- - Thursday, Dec. 22, 2005
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nothing - Monday, Aug. 29, 2005
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