I feel so powerless. I can't stop anything.
I wish he would come back.
I wish I knew if he existed.
I want them to love each other.
I want to protect her.
I want a normal fourteen year olds life.
I want a million things I cant have.
They're all abstract things.
I want her to be okay.
I want him to come to her.
I want him to respond to her emails.
I want him to pick up the phone.
I want myself to be at peace.
I want the church idiots to go away.
I want to have control over things.
I have control over nothing but myself.
This is bad, because this promotes cutting.
I promised I wouldn't cut.
Did you know it's been so hard these past few days?
I have been reading cutting books.
They haven't really been helping.
I want to breathe easy again.
I want to laugh without a reason.
I want to have a good day.
I want my Mom to be okay.
I wish it would snow soon.
I wish I didn't have a need for drama.
Did you know that I have a constant need for it?
I think thats why I can't let go of Keisuke and Cande.
I wish that I knew Kei was real.
I want him and Cande to marry.
I have the hopes of a lost girl.
Maybe I am really lost.
I'm trying not to give up.
Really.. I am.
I think I'm invisible now.
No one really acts happy to see me at school.
Only one person.
Shes going through difficult times now.
I dont go to therapy until the 26th.
This is tough.
I need to talk with Miss Nementy.
I want to know what a fuck bracelet is?
Cande says I'm her bitch because shes sending one.
In the laughing sense of course.
I still call her Cande around everyone else, but I call her Yuuriko to her face.
I wonder why he gave her that name?
Im out.
Courtney